When I was a little girl, probably in the 2nd grade, my mom cut my hair above my shoulders and I cried the entire time. In college, I went to get my hair cut and the stylist I had been going to for years who knew I loved my long tresses cut my hair right below my shoulders – I put my hair in a ponytail until it grew out and never saw her again.
Of course I think as humans we all have preferences on how we prefer we look – but sometimes you have to think, Is it really because I look better this way or Is this an unhealthy security blanket? I found security in my hair, I can’t explain it, it sounds ridiculous and it wasn’t this way all the time. Or perhaps it was, but I never realized it because I always left my hair long. Security turned into an idol. Now not all women who have long hair idolize their hair. But for me, deep down, I knew there was something wrong. I kept looking at photos of myself and thought, it just looked too long, but why couldn’t I seem to cut more? Why was it giving me anxiety that even when I went for a trim I’d come home and declare, “It’s too short!” ?
I’ve had many idols in my life. Some were things, vanity, other times it was a person, or a goal. My idols have changed and lessoned as I’ve matured spiritually and come to acknowledge them. I know people who have idols of things that I particularly couldn’t ever imagine idolizing (at least it’s not for me at the moment) – idols change and they hold different weight depending on who you are. None of us though are ever free from them.
I had never cut my hair short since that accidental college chop I mentioned earlier in this post. But then I did it this summer – you may or may not have noticed and if you didn’t, you may be thinking I could’ve gone shorter to really make a point. The cut was a cut, one I would have never done before and two months later, I went back and cut it again. I actually walked away disappointed my hair wasn’t shorter – such a change. Something happened after that. There’s a feeling of freedom – I can cut my hair and I can grow it out, what-ev-er. It’s just hair, it’ll grow back. Honestly, I’ll probably let it go long this fall because I think I my fall outfits will look better with longer hair, and I may cut it when it annoys me again. That’s just one recent example of my latest idol. Hair – so silly.
There’s something about letting go and realizing you’re still the same person with or without your idol. Your idol is just a temporary fixation making something more important and bigger than life and God. It’s putting too much weight on something that won’t last forever – beauty, a thing, person, job, car, home, you pick your poison. How do you know if you have one? What creates fear in you if you suddenly lost it? What can’t you give up right now? There’s your answer.
Once you admit it, do something – let it go in your heart, cut the ties. It’ll be so freeing. Chop chop.
Have you ever realized you had a security blanket/idol? What did you do to free yourself from it?
Diana Elizabeth believes if you idolize something, you can let it go in your heart and still have it in your life – with a different perspective. Getting rid of an idol doesn’t necessarily mean you have to say goodbye physically, but other times, you may.