“Don’t be afraid to fall in love. It’s the only thing that matters in life. Fall in love with as many things as possible.” – Gwyneth Paltrow as Kelly Canter in Country Strong
This quote hit me hard as I sat on the couch next to Katy in San Diego. I immediately had to google this quote and knew I would write a blog about it.
I have stories. Stories of loving, hard, unconditionally, and stories of losing. Stories that I wish weren’t mine, but stories that I’m glad they are because they make me who I am. PDEPE – that stands for Pre Diana Elizabeth Photography Era I had a little blog. I blogged about personal things, a little bit of graphic design, a whole lot about my faith, and even picking up my first DSLR and taking so-so images and blogging about them. Today, I have transferred that transparency to this blog. But I have to admit, seeing my Google Analytics and seeing the monthly visits in 5 digits really frightens me. I’ve never had this sort of audience, so I hold back. And, I’ve decided I’m not going to anymore.
After seeing Katy’s blog post quoting an old blog post I had written, I decided to dig up a few things I’ve said over the year. As you can see, I love lots of things. You’ll be seeing more of this, coming soon. And, I hope you don’t mind.
“Be passionate about what you do. Love it. Build it up. Don’t let your dreams die. And sometimes, while it’s hard, you will have to attempt to reinvent the wheel. Don’t be afraid to be different, talk about your business with confidence, and enjoy every minute you put into your business. After all, you wouldn’t have gone this far if you weren’t sure this was your passion.”
“I believe life is meant to be shared, the happy times, the hardships, the growth, every stage and chapter in your life. If you don’t keep in touch with people that have lived through those times with you, then who do you have to remember or reflect upon life with? Memories are hard to dig up by yourself. These dear friends of mine are treasures. Talented treasures that I am thrilled to take with me into the future. And what joy to share such a similar passion and love for the art of photography and I am excited to have them by my side when my big day comes. I’m a blessed girl.”
“I love the smell of blown out candles, most likely because it reminds me of birthdays and that smell means you just blew out a candle after you made that big important wish. I’ve made big wishes before that candle blow too. I know what it’s like to wish hard, for those wishes to come true, and even to see those wishes go bad. I’m here to tell you it will be okay. I’ve had a dad come so close to death with lymphoma cancer that doctors didn’t even put him on strong drugs because they already considered his life lost, but miraculously, his cancer disappeared within a month. I’ve loved so hard and lost so suddenly and painfully, that I gave myself a bloody nose from crying so hard. I’ve been in so much pain that I have actually dropped to my knees like the movies. I’ve loved like the movies. I’ve been put down and insulted only to feel two inches tall by someone I thought loved me, yet would abandon me. I’ve felt every high, low, and in between just like you. Seeing the silver lining in a hurtful situation is nearly impossible when you can barely see past the tears that have clouded your eyes. I will never claim to know more than you. I only know what I’ve experienced and I’m able to survive every hardship by the grace of God. I hope you’ll laugh, cry, and be inspired by my life. I hope you’ll chase after your dreams, and even if you stumble and fall, you’ll keep chasing after them, just as I am.”
“I want to meet as many people as I can in this world so I can love them. God has given me the ability to connect to people through love. I love anything and everything (minus cats, pigeons, and roof rats), I have patience for those who are lost and may seem undeserving, and my heart beats forgiveness. And because this is so deep within every cell of my body, I can’t have anyone telling me that it’s wrong. I catch myself smiling more and more when I’m by myself. And that, is a wonderfully fantastic thing.”
And perhaps the neatest one of all when I first picked up my camera not knowing that soon it would be my life passion:
“I want to take my Canon with me and document it in ways that I see, feel, and experience it. I want to learn more, read more, go outside more and eat more. The next time it’s pouring rain outside, I hope I’ll have someone I’m crazy about sitting next to me and I’ll grab him outside and we can splash, jump and kiss in the rain.”
Diana Elizabeth teared up reading some of those old entries, a rush of old too familiar feelings returned but she is happy to know that God is so good, and He sees the whole picture. And He always knows what is best. Truly.